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lyrics
I heard you talk but I couldn’t listen
My mind is in shards and I hoped they’d glisten
And I thought I found some help
In these lonely sillhouettes
You ask how I’ve been and I look through ya
This weight on my feet ain’t no hallelujah
I’ve been walking on these streets
With blood soaking my sleeves
The guilty have gone nothing left but to fool ya
And all I ever wanted was a purpose
And all I ever wanted was to be of help
Cause all I ever wanted was some comfort
Without feeling like I’m just a whiny shell
I don’t know why this is
I don’t know what to do
I don’t know where from here
And I wish I never knew
Surviving shouldn’t be so hard a weight no
Cause sometimes I feel I’m surviving just for you
Been cleaning my house aligning numbers
Been careful with words like I rip them from flesh
Cause if I lose control
Just like I did before
I know it will hurt like a wound cut open
And all I ever wanted was to stop this
Trying to take my body and my spirit back
Wash off all the dirt then smile along so
All this blood will not offend your tiny heart
This isn’t about you
And it has never been
You’re just my flesh and blood
Just bitting back at me
I tried to speak the truth you wouldn’t listen
You made me look for strangers for the things I need
I tried to speak the truth you wouldn’t listen
You made me look in strangers for the things I need
It’s only a child that no one cares for
Cause no one has stopped all this mutilation
Cause once you felt his breath
Heaving on your neck
You’ll wish you have died than to live with this horror
And all I ever wanted was a purpose
And all I ever wanted was to be of help
Cause all I ever wanted was some comfort
Without feeling like I’m just a whiny shell
You know I’m still around
I haven’t given up
This song is just a song
I’ll leave it all at that
I’ll probably be lying but I’ll say this
Shall this be the last song about broken hearts
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